A Few Choice Words

yesterday was a great day at work, until i went to leave.  

i sat at my desk until straight up 5pm and then sat there afraid to leave because x was standing at the desk.  i knew she would say something about me leaving and my relief  (cuz i guess i now need a relief but had not been told) was not sitting there in the chair.  i took extra time shutting things down, gathering my stuff, and saying good-bye to a co-worker.  as i opened the door to walk out x blurts out something about did i know where the person was at that was taking over for me.  i replied, in a strained voice, that i did not know where they were.  she replied gruffly, or maybe that is her normal voice when showing irritation, something about me knowing who was supposed to be at the front to which i replied that information is not communicated to me.  she then refereed to handing a baton off to the next person and stated that "they had it, go on", meaning she, or the it guy, or my co-worker had the phone since i was leaving before i was supposed to.  i was pretty floored (though i should just expect it by now).  i stammered something and she again said no go on they had it.  i walked to my car shaking and sat down.  somehow i had forgotten my phone and knew i was going to have to go back in for it.  i waited.  

when i got back into the office my relief had arrived, x was no where in sight, and my phone was sitting on the counter.  i asked my relief if x had said anything and related a bit of the situation to her.  my relief said that our clocks were five minutes fast according to their iphone.  i don't think they realized how detrimental it is to ags that our phone is left for five minutes (yes that is sarcasm and it is dripping).

as far as i know i still get off at 5 and do not have to wait around for any relief.  that may change today when i check my email and found out my offense was grave.  i know i am being sarcastic here but i am really angry about how x has treated me for the past three years.  i believe she is short and speaks in an irritated tone with several of the staff, but i don't like being one of her targets.  i truly wanted to ask her why she felt the need to be so nasty toward me - but only after i got home and calmed down a little enough to think straight.  

i know i am sensitive.  that is one of my strong points - i can feel deeply with others.  on the negative side it makes me sick each time i have to interact with her.  i am on edge whenever i see her walking up to the building and cringe when she comes near.  i don't have the balls to just ask her what the deal is, and i think she would deny anything anyway.  

i have decided the next time she comes to speak to me i am going to make a deal of pulling out my phone and recording her.  i want her to know that she speaks in a nasty way to me and i am going to do something about it.  when i finally get some thick skin and decide i don't care if she likes me.

the co-worker that i said good night to last night just came and told me she was quite disturbed by the way that situation was handled last night.  that last night her husband asked what she wanted for supper and she started crying.  this job is getting to people, not the job but the people we are working with.  she reminded me that i am not the only one x has been nasty to so it is not personal.  

i still wish i could give x a few choice words to knock some sense into her.