This Is What I Get

so all the craziness has gotten over - well except for the rather large hole developing at the top of my incision site.  i am going to the dr tomorrow about that actually, hoping to get a beautiful butterfly for that.  i keep being told it is normal, only the part i don't believe is normal is the continued enlargement of the hole...

so scot got me this beautiful "guarantee" ring.  he stated that it was a guarantee for the following reason (please see reason in below paragraph...):

"My life has been crazy for a long time without you Rebecca. For the first time I feel I know where I am going and feel complete. A promise ring means nothing to me due to the fact promises can be broken. As sad as that is in life it is true. That's why this ring is not a promise of my love but a guarantee! But to add to this statement is something else I have learned since you have came into my live,..... 'When we seek for connection, we restore the world to wholeness. Our seemingly separate lives become meaningful as we discover how truly necessary we are to each other'. I hope this makes up for not being able to be the man u have always needed, but to show you I can learn to be the best man I can next to you! I love you and always will till life does not exist on the lil planet we live on."

yeah.  he wrote that for me... amazing huh?  i actually did not know he could express himself so wonderfully.  i was quite overwhelmed after reading it.  im still not certain my feeble "thank you, scot" could ever come close to the wonder and love i felt coming from myself and the love i knew was coming from him in his declaration.  i am so blessed.

i asked charity to be my maid of honor tonight.  

no we are not officially engaged yet.  and i may be jumping the gun on getting details in place, but there is only a year for planning and so much that needs to happen in that tine also.  so never hurts getting some details down.  hopefully having details taken care of early will allow us a normal life not consumed with wedding details.  and yes, he will ask - still doesn't mean i need to stop planning....

good night. :)

and God, thank You.  thank You for keeping me through this entire process.  the journey has been scary, and i have questioned each step.  You came through.  and You gave me a wonderful man.  help me cherish him as You do.