It's Wednesday

today's women's study was again the Lisa Bevere "Fight Like A Girl". topic - God is asking "Who's the Man?". the answer, Jesus. He is the only truly qualified, the only one to ever love us completely, the only one we can totally trust. God is described as a man, but He is not a man - Numbers 23:19 states that "God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind." God is so much more than a man or woman (for those who think He is a woman....) He is whole and complete, and so much more than us. His ways are not our, His thoughts are not ours, they are better. God is the only truth He cannot lie. what He says He will do He does. to become like Him we must spend time with Him. you know you become like those you are around. and if we want to have a satisfied life then we must spend time with God. seeing ourself through His eyes. claiming we are what He says we are.
Proverbs 29:25 "the fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe." Psalms 56: 11 "in God i trust, i will not be afraid. what can man do to me?" when we trust Him to be our provision, defender, healer, restoration, life..... then what can anyone really do to us? it may not be pleasant, but what can they truly do? Psalms 118:8 "it is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man." you can trust people, just don't trust IN them. there is no way they can meet your needs. and in this we can love fearlessly because God is our source of life. i can trust God and love my husband regardless if i have had fear of abandonment (YEP sure have lived with that torment....) great series.

and tonight was a great night. i kept my boss late chatting with her. she is such an encourager and knows the word of God. it is great to be reminded of how God looks at me. He is not an accuser or destroyer. He lovingly pulls me up short and tells me there are things needing to change for my good. that attitudes need to be given over so i can experience peace and prosperity. it is wonderful to work in a christian atmosphere. still human nature going on, but we know where our source is.

life is still rolling along. i am experiencing healing in my heart over the miscarriage and know that God will provide what i can not imagine. He is showing me how to let go of the past and not hold my husband accountable for perceived (and very real) wrongs done (who has not done wrong to their loved ones?????) and telling me to forgive myself for the mistakes - He says "quit bringing them up, i forgave them. you are the only one remembering them..." He is taking me through the actual process of healing. there have been some pretty scary moments and hard things to walk through, but God is faithful. He says i am blessed, my marriage is blessed, my husband is blessed. so i am excited to see how it will all go down.

please keep us in prayer when we are brought to your mind. simply ask God how to pray, He knows best.

love to you all