Purpose

WOOOHOOOO I GOT FLOWERS THIS MORNING!!!!

okay that said. i thought i left a post friday - but obviously forgot. hmmm that was a whole 24 hours ago - well the beginning of the day. slept in, oh yes. we slept in because it was a LATE thurs night. (i went to the movies with a friend and got home around 3am, bob came in around 3.30am - was still working....) movie was stinky but it was great to go to a midnight showing with my friend. oooh that was wed night....

friday, slept in. (had a late night thurs but not sure why..) bob was home before me - only had four hours of sleep wed night and went in early thurs morning. we went to a movie and then out to eat. oh yes, then went to some of the second hand stores to get bob some clothes to wear on his up and coming trip. got home and i watched him fix our broken kitchen chair and then work on stripping LAYERS of paint off a chair my grandmother had. i read and came in to bed around midnight. it was a nice full day out of doors.

then, THIS MORNING I GOT FLOWERS!!! just in case you did not get that in the first place. actually WE got flowers - our anniversary is tomorrow. mom sent us a beautiful bouquet. and they smell lovely.

when i got the call for directions this morning i was very excited. i jumped around the house and caught myself skipping. i love flowers, and they were delivered. that is even more exciting. so i guess i am done bragging. i did not mean to in the first place - i am just excited. i don't know if i have ever had delivery before - well once in high school, mom and dad sent me valentines roses. i was shocked. (and a guy that liked me sent me a bear with a rose - that was a treat)

all girls like delivery of some sort - that surprise and especially if it is in front of people. nothing like being honoured and having others know it. like a guy getting an award for .....

that is something God has been showing me. He celebrates me. now here is the disclaimer - this is not about saying that a specific person is so wonderful and we overlook bad behavior etc etc etc (and maybe that is not what i am saying) HOWEVER: God has created each one of us. He celebrates us - we need to celebrate His creation - us. there is a specific reason and purpose in store for us. He designed us before we were born. He is crazy about us, trying to put together wonderful dreams and lives for us. firstly - to know Him... period... He wants a relationship with ME. YOU. the end. THEN. He wants us to be fulfilled. our plan, purpose, destiny. whatever you want to call it.
there are a selected group of individuals that will connect with us, (and an even greater that won't - so don't take it personal. you probably have a group of people that want to connect with you and you would prefer they leave you alone... hehehe..) and He wants us to be able to reach that group of people. clue - you can't without Him. until you know Him and have a relationship with Him you will not be effective to reach THEM. and will go around asking - what is my purpose? or more realistically, no one likes me and i really find no reason to live... or any form of those words. when we finally see that God celebrates us. how we are His. then our entire outlook changes and we begin to see there is a reason for us. every freckle - He is 'excited' about it because it is unique to us, me. He rejoices over us - not our bad behaviour, us. we are separate from our stupid. He sees US, ME, YOU separate from our actions. and that is what He loves, never ceasing or changing.

i saw a young man yesterday, bob was trying on clothes at the time. the young man had these beautiful dresses in his hands. he is taking part in a beauty pageant. he tried them on and showed his family, they talked about how to fill in places on the dresses. he bought them. he was so excited about it he showed me a picture stored on his phone with his 'make-up' on.
stunned me.
he has no idea who he is. no idea who God made him to be. the hurt to find yourself not being who you are created to be. the ignoring of the very purpose you are here for. i hurt for him not knowing who he is. and now i realize there is a selected group, not knowing their purpose in life, that this young man can reach if the LIVING GOD, his Creator, gets hold of him. his Creator can show him who he is, really is. there in i place my hope for him.

Father, i ask you to draw this man to You. Your great love. It will change the way he sees himself, the very way he lives his life. to know You love him and ache to have him know You. draw him, don't let him get away from You. put the people in his path that will reach him. don't let me miss what You want me to do in this again. draw him. it is Your Will that he come to know You and know himself through You. in the name of Jesus bring Him to You. amen.