my great vacation trek is coming up.  i am getting to use the last of my 2010 vacation before the 30th or lose it.  i had to go through a few hoops but i have a confirmation on the dates now :) woo hoo.  i will have the following off: friday 10, tuesday 14, friday 17th, monday 20th, tuesday 21st (conference so not a vacation...), thursday 23rd, friday 24th, thursday 30th, and then july 1st - 5th.  i am so looking forward to it all.

tomorrow i have a dr appointment at 9.15, but can go home and sleep if i want to.  i am just wiped out right now.  can't believe how tired i feel all the time.  i am going to blame the next 10 years on the anesthesia they used during my surgery ;).  (wonder if i can truly get away with that...)

scot is getting over the sinus infection he had after returning home.  i can barely believe he has been gone only around 2 weeks.  feels like it has been forever.  we are both hoping for a surgery with little down time, but i am sketchy on believing it will be a quick recovery.  

i have the opportunity to house sit all summer, possibly november.  this was a pretty exciting turn of events.  i will get to care for 3 dogs, even one will crash in the bed with me - that is cool i sure miss snuggling with kacy at times.  

i have a message scot sent me posted at my desk.  i just read the line 'i love you and always will till life does not exist on the lil planet we live on' and though i do not immediately question how it is possible to love someone that much, the question is still here.  how can someone love me that long?  it is not just a question about whether i will be unlovable, but also a question of whether they are capable.  how can two people love for so long?  i realize there will be times when things are tough and irritating.  there might even be strong feelings of hatred :( but can love last?  

God, Your love lasts.  You are able to love through Your creation, through me, and through others.  guess i should just hope and trust You will be in my relationships.  i just want to admit that i am still scared and gun-shy about it.  the way You are working through scot to show me love, consideration, importance, value - well i am honored.  thank You.