Been Forever

k i admit it has been forever since i last picked up my keyboard and started pecking at it. tho i will blame life happenings and sitting at a computer doing computer things day in and day out. really it got off my priority list.

here is a shock for those that don't already know... (if anyone is still reading this blog..)
robert and i are getting divorced. long story that happened faster than i thought it could . i feel it was a bad decision on robert's part, but only because God has majorly worked in my heart and mind. i sure miss having him around, i always missed having him around. never got to be the friend thing, probably what hampered much of our life together. well and many things i simply will not know about - possibly ever.

God will take everything meant for evil and turn it around. i never thought that i would have a divorce - totally against all i wanted and hoped for. yet God brought me to the place where i have found identity, hope, future, and my personal relationship with Jesus more intimate than i could have believed. i wish robert was here in this journey with me o how i wish that were the case, it is not so at this time so i will continue on with Him - the One that is in love with me and wants my love in return. i can not love with out Him. i love robert because of Him and trust that He will draw my husband into His amazing - ness. i am very sad at this relationship falling through, yet i know that God is amazing and has a wonderful plan for us both. so if there is a future for us or not, i don't need to worry. just let Him heal the disappointment and lead me into the future. and i will let go.....

moving on a bit:

recently i have found that oklahoma is 4th in child trafficking. that is in putting children into the sex industry. blew me out of the water. within the 'bible belt' we are #4.

after chatting with a co-worker it hit me that all this healing God has been doing in my life can be channeled into working with child recovery. i delight in coloring and playing on the floor with children - play therapy. children want to trust, by putting God into my interaction i will have the grace and mercy to deal with personal rejection from a child that simply cannot accept or know love at that moment. God has this amazing way of dealing with us when we are hurting or angry and He so wants to put His arms around us but we won't let Him. He is the perfect instructor for this journey.

so i am going to the conference in tulsa to begin learning what it will take to be involved in rescuing children. info on the conference here. not a quick journey, yet looking back over the past three years with this divorce i am amazed at how God redeems time, and i will get to experience the unimaginable. He is so good.

on a corresponding vein - i am starting school. wow - never thought this would come.

i begin classes at oklahoma wesleyan university in a few weeks - maybe sooner not sure yet. and it has been amazing at how quickly God has put this together. i decided last week to do classes. now i am about to be enrolled and in class. wow - head is still spinning.

emily - my advisor - is at present working on a course of study plan for me. i will sign it and then be officially enrolled to get my associate of applied science in early childhood education. from there i plan to get into the licensure process and schooling necessary for working with children rescued from the sex slave industry. wow - this world is so corrupt.