Hope Renewed

today is sunday - started rough, but God is faithful and He restores hope.

i submitted to the fact that God speaks. He speaks to each one of us and He is good about what He says. so i came home and did some confessing of what He has shown me.

had a very pleasant afternoon, slept about an hour and headed out to a mission tonight - feeding the homeless. i did dishes.... lol. was a very nice way to spend the evening - even tho i got sick to my stomach (passed quickly, yeah!!!) and was encouraged.

God is good in all He does. He does not short anyone. i am encouraged to keep believing He holds all hearts in His hand. that those who love Him will obey Him. and that means i have hope. that means there is hope to have. that means that even when things don't look good He is good and working. He holds the kings heart and moves people into place, especially those that want His will. therefore fear must flee and hope can abound.

God likes to show off. He loves the glory of a bad situation turning out beautiful. did you know that the first miracle Jesus did was to turn water into wine? the water used filled pitchers that had scum and nasty stuff from people washing after being on the road. Jesus told the servants to fill the jars, draw a cup, and take it to the MASTER of the ceremony. He gave the master scummy water - low and behold it was the BEST wine the master had tasted. SOOOOO God takes the scummy nasty stuff and makes it beautiful. if i will abide in Him then He will abide in me. there can be real change. i have hope. i still need help. God is faithful.

i need His strength and power to set me free from things that keep hanging on. anger, rage, and jealousy are deep from childhood and it is time to be free from them. God wants it more than i do, so i am even more encouraged. no excuses - time for freedom.

He will make what i see as being threatened and destroyed, blossom and produce fruit. it is His way and His will. He will be glorified in this life, this marriage. past, present, and future. it is His way.

do what you know then you will know what to do. i do not walk by sight - all things change and God is glorified in change.

something else - it does not matter how many times God has shown me something in the past, it matters that i get hold of as much of it as i can. God doesn't beat me up for not getting something - i beat myself up, and get beat up in the process of missing what He is showing (wisdom will always listen and get understanding..) - but He is always for my good, and does all He can to get me what is needed. He is gracious, and i am going to learn to separate Him from what i think He is, so i can be who He wants me to be.

i love you Lord, be free with me.