Yes He Got Neutered..

alright this month of june has just not been consistent for my blog posts. seems days fly by and i am simply not interested in staying up late to enter how things are going.
all in all fine. i have an early dr apt tomorrow morning. yeah - should be a blast. no eating because i have labs to get. new dr, new place, i am a bit daunted i guess.
work is progressing very well. lorena is back from her vacation - she had a wonderful time. i am glad she is back. i missed her, and am glad she had the time off.
dude is doing well - he got neutered last friday. seems to be handling it all well.
kaci has yeast infection in her ears so she is on meds and i am sure loving it.
bernice - nothing to complain about.
that is that for now.
night all

Havin Some Fun

it is thursday. seems the week has flown by again. mon and tue went by kind of like a snail. wed i got my hair styled

here i am with make-up done. yes it is short and i do not have picts of the back yet.




i think i liked this one too.



decorated an office for bday today. had a great time.

here her chairs are tied together with green crepe paper

the sign on her desk with crepe paper all over it


stars and 'disco' ball hanging from ceiling with crepe paper all over


we have such a blast together at work :) i really do enjoy the atmosphere i work in.

also got to go to phantom of the opera FREE this afternoon. (i have that on my calendar and all the dates and times each day, i really wanted to go. God is so good to me.) that was great!! then came to work and was fed and have been laughing practically the entire evening. such refreshing time.
tomorrow i take the dude into the vet for his SURGERY. and kaci to get her ears checked. have to be there around 7a.m. YIKES that is early....
that is it for now. enjoy the picts.

Ouch That Hurts

today i was looking at some pictures on a friend's website. (great picts by the way - and i just won a free photo shoot from them YIPEE - i had secretly told God it would be great to have picts done with lyricsphotography.)
all of a sudden i was hit by the realization that i would be 7 months pregnant if i had not miscarried in january. yep, that hurt a bit. and i realize on the other side that God is so good and will grant that desire. that the more i draw to Him the more i realize it is a God given hope that is in me to be a mother, and it will be sooner than i think. He is great at giving me what i want in the appropriate time. i so look forward to His great gift.

Dude Lazying Around

i also got some great picts of dude sleeping on the scratching post.

i am sure if i cover my eyes she will go away....





no really go away, i want to sleep....








ok so not really


this counting sheep stuff is not really working well.

Here I Go Again

okay, i have no idea how the time keeps flying by. the weekend is gone already and i am still not sure what happened during those days...
friday - i think i got to sleep in till around 9 am - or maybe it was a nice 10.30 am... i think that was the day i went and got the grocery and gas money out, filled up my car, put air in the tires. then came home and went to get groceries. later rob and i went to see kung fu panda - cute, and 21. both were fun. ate lots of gross food and then came home to burgers on the grill (or maybe we had burgers earlier...), crashed in bed some time.
sat - went to work, long day because i got to bed late - imagine that, going to bed late because i work late mon-thurs... got up around 7 to leave around 8. came home and may have gone shopping again, can't seem to place it.. i am sure we stayed up late again..
sun - rob mowed the lawn and i worked in the flower beds weeding. it was hot but it did not look like it should be - cloudy i think. as the day wore on it got hotter. we went to lowes for a toilet flapper and on to home depot for a light fixture. also looked at under counter lighting options. got sick that evening. rob prayed, asked mom to pray too. got over it QUICKLY. two weekends in a row ill... how odd. feeling much better now...

love the fixture we got:

You Are My Reason

alright here i am. still feels like i am coming to You in the same place over and over. i see what the word says, i know You are good all the time - i have seen it with my own eyes, experienced it within my life. help me continue on with the hope only You can provide. i love it that You scoop me up and love me in each season of life. You are my reason.

'I Hate You!' I Screamed

'i hate You!' i screamed. 'You lie! You told me You would heal me, make me whole! that You would bless all i put my hands to! that my land would prosper! and i am broken, i am hurt! i am not healed! and i am stuck with a man that won't love me! You lie, Your word lies. and i hate You.' the words echoed in my bathroom. 'i hate You.' i sobbed.
i felt a sigh of relief. almost as if He was glad i finally let out the words and emotions.

'he can't.' i heard.

'he can't love you the way I can.'

i was still.

'no one can love you the way I can. there is not a single soul that will give you what you need and crave, but Me. I so want to pour My love into you. I don't want you to ever feel this disparity and helplessness.'
He was so gentle. for the first time His voice changed.
before my expression of words, i would hear Him yet there was a tinge of judgement. always pointing out how i was wrong. that i was not walking in love. that i was not standing in faith. that there are countless stories in the Bible of people waiting years for an answer. that i really did not hate Him and knew He did not lie. none of that.
just a simple 'I know and accept how you feel. I approve of you still and My love for you will never change, even when you speak to Me this way.'
i was at peace for the first time in weeks. it seemed a lifetime ago that i hurt. God is so good, and seriously wants the things between us to go. if i hold onto the hurtful words from others, the actions taken or not taken - well that gets in the way of what He is trying to do, get close to me.
i spent the rest of the afternoon in His loving arms. i felt so accepted and approved of that i was able to dress as she-rambo and go to a birthday party totally camied out (in camouflage colours, even on my face...). i had a blast and did not even feel out of place tho i was the only one dressed up. (i use dressed up loosely...)
know what, God even showed me how His love covers me. He opened my eyes to see that things are not what i see. there are so many areas He has healed and made me whole - just not the way i thought He should (i hear a chuckle every time i say that He answers prayers in ways i don't expect and am surprised. imagine being surprised by the Almighty Creator.).
so when i tell you that He wants a real relationship with you. know that He wants the nitty gritty too. He deservers respect and honour. at times my humanness gets the better of me and that is what He gets to see, and still it seems He is alright with it. He pulls me close and tells me again how He thinks i am the coolest and wants to be my friend, that He has great plans for me and wishes to see the best for my life, watching me be His hands and feet to others. what a God i serve.