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i am in the midst of a huge life change. learning what grace says about me. letting God's love speak and embrace me. when i fall down, He's there with me. i am a daughter. i am a wonderful treasure.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

What Do I Do Now?

it has been a whirl-wind weekend and i am still recovering. after that fantastic vision friday morning it seemed things just fell apart. i am so glad God is faithful and well, glad He is Who and What He is.... love beyond what i could hope for.
so the weekend went by and left me exhausted and torn apart.
sunday was a shower for a soon-to-be mom and it turned out to be a blessing in disguise. i was concerned about going because i am not really familiar with many people and i was tired and emotionally spent. even mom was unsure if it was the best place to go (i did not feel capable to even make a decision...) so i went and was welcomed, like visiting friends
then yesterday a position opened at work. i now have some options, only i am not exactly sure what to do. i have been seeking God on the best course of action. putting down the fearful thoughts that come with some of the choices. i think the hardest part is that i don't know what the options are - is it just a free for all where i can put out my requests and they will simply fill in the hours i don't work? or do i need to be able to work a schedule that is equally 'fair' for a new hire? and is that something i need to concern myself with?
if i had my pick??? take days, a 'normal' schedule so i could have interactions at church and socially that i crave? or keep on with the evening and messed up weekends because i am needed there and have made some 'friends' that i can't hang with or do more than say hi and have a good evening?... wow days are looking better already. but is it 'grass is greener on other side' and then reality hits?
would be obvious i need God's direction on this. just as He directed me to take this position in the first place, He can and will, AND desires to guide my steps in this decision. whatever leads away from peace and life is not of Him. this worry and concern is more than i can carry, Papa, let me hear You loud and clear so i can make the decision You want me to make. i surrender, help me stay there.
Proverbs 16:3 (Amplified Bible)
3Roll your works upon the Lord [commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His will, and] so shall your plans be established and succeed.
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