Ketchup

i am experiencing sleep deprivation - well what i would call sleep deprivation. i am sssssooooo tired. kaiser feels he needs to get us up starting around 4.30 - 5 am. he puts his face right in mine and whines (tall animal). i roll over and say 'bob, he is whining.' rob gets up and lets him out. and it is fantastic. (rob has this wonderful ability to get up and come back to bed and fall right back to sleep. i have no idea how he does this. i can tell him the dog needs out and sorta fall back to sleep... but if i were to get up, well mise well get up.)
kaiser is still not sure where he is to go to the bathroom. tonight i left him in our bathroom with the hope that there would be no mess to clean up. i am asking for a rather large kennel that we can put him in at night or when we go off to work until he is trained for out door bathroom needs. at least my carpet is getting steam cleaned thoroughly.
he is learning a lot. he obeys wonderfully and is learning the tasks throughout the day. what a great dog.
yesterday i did a 'running' workout. today i am pretty sore but sure am excited about what i accomplished. tonight i will go home and do my yoga/pilates workout to stretch and get movement back into achy muscles. since i have been using this stretching workout i have greater movement in my left shoulder (it has been limited in motion for some time now). not what i would like but better than it has been.
hey hope you are having a wonderful day.

Sitting At Work Wondering

i am sitting here at work. sitting because the computer network is slower than slow. there is no getting anything done and i am now highly aware that there are two dogs at home and no one to be in charge. i am thinking about the mess from this morning and hoping (alright desparing) that there will not be a big mess waiting for me at home.
there is this little thought however: i asked God that if we took kaiser, He would give me what would be needed, in every area. finances, grace and mercy, to care for the animal and provide what he would need, and what we would need. patience to clean up after hom and take care of him.
so what i need to do is pull together my thoughts and give them to Him. He is so good at showing me how to structor my time and get done what is needed. He also grants peace to me in the midst of the chaos. He is so good. AND He wants kaiser cared for. me too, He wants me to be cared for and not be weighed down by responsibility. He has made my path straight, and the load i carry to be light in weight, He actually wants to carry it for me while i rest and find peace in Him. i have a job to do, and He enables me to do it.
i am so glad to have kaiser as part of our family. i am blessed to have kaci, dude, and bernice. i am blessed to have rob here too. God gives me exactly what is needed to care for all these blessings, including myself.
have a great night.

First Night

well this morning started earlier than i hoped it would. kept hearing a small whine from the other side of our bedroom. so i got myself out of bed, went to the bathroom (first things first..) and stepped out into the living room. the dogs were so happy to see me. kaci came from the direction of the computer room and kaiser was right there in the hallway. i turned to the right and was greeted by my first wake-up shock - the living room was full of dog poop.
alright - not full, but every room had a present. (and it was BIG poop) i saw the first gift of my morning and immediately let the dogs outside, had to carefully choose my way through as i was greeted with several more surprises.
one room had some dirrehea the computer had just had a visit, and the living room had several piles (how did he hold in that much stuff, we let him out at least four times before bed...) needless to say, i was happy i did not steam clean on friday.
so i steam cleaned this morning with my already sore muscles and spoke lovingly to the dogs. (the cats are still hiding from our new guest) then i showered and prepared to do some yoga/pilates just to loosen my already sore muscles and get some stretch back into my arms. i have misplaced my dvd, so the 40 minute workout took me about 15 min, still trying to figure this out because i think i did all the exercises.... and i am not feeling quite as well as i usually do after this workout.
all in all a very good night. it will take a few days to get a schedule set. and my main priority is to let kaiser know he is loved and welcome here no matter what.
strangely, as i was loading the dishwasher (so i had an empty sink for the steam cleaner water..) it hit me that God has had to clean up a lot of my messes too. that throughout life i have had my share of really dirty messes and He has somehow brought good out of them also. it was just such a striking, funny thought that i had to laugh out loud and then i moaned just because of the embarrassment of what God has come into where i was concerned and how He got me to a better place. He truly comes into our filthy life and loves us out of it all. what a wonderful relationship He gives to us.
have a great day all.

Our New Guest/Family

we have just brought a new guest/family member into our home. one of our destiny church members is heading off to paris tomorrow. he was looking for a great home for one of his best friends. so kaiser has come to join our happy family. looks like a wonderful add. he and kaci ran around the house checking things out (yes, even kaci checked stuff out). and a match is found.

so with out further ado - here is kaiser our new german shepherd
kaiser looking off toward the outdoors

he and kaci are in the upper part of the picture, i know it is hard to see but they are there - where's waldo??

kaci seems to be fine with it all

kaiser in shadow (actually looking around the house for his bestest friend - mocha

still searching. it is going to take a few days. mocha raised him from a 6 week-old. they are great pals.

kaiser we are so glad to have you here with us.

such an exciting and heart wrenching situation. mocha is off on a grand adventure trusting God to take him where he is supposed to go. and so tough to say good-bye to all the familiar and loved places/friends.

we are so glad to be part of this somehow.

Back To The Ol' Grind..

woohoo, i am now the proud owner of a gym membership at the Y. very excited because it has been almost 2 years since i was working out regularly. today was my first 30 minute cardio session and i did well. was tired all day, the exercise did not stimulate me, but i did it!! and i loved it.
i am going to rediscover the power of music on my workout - i find i need a quick beat to match movement to, and it keeps me pumped the entire workout.
i watched the cosby show and laughed a lot. forgot how funny that show is.
i kept up with the guy on the elliptical beside me, and he was in better shape than i feel, so i am pretty proud of my ability today.
now that i have bragged i will go to bed 'cuz i am wiped out :).
night

From A Birthday Party...

friend's son had a bday party - i dressed up (was the only one...) and had a blast. here is some evidence....

What Does It Look Like...

to be in love with your best friend:

complete acceptance of me. who i am, what i like and don't like, my opinions. not judging me by the fear that grips me or how i express it.

being able to not fear any sort of judgement, knowing i am loved simply because i am loved - not by what i do. the worry about not being liked or accepted for what i am would be destroyed by the love shown me.

trusting what is said is true and would happen.

i would want to spend all my waking moments with the person, getting to know everything about them. it would be exciting and fun, scary too at times.

we would touch each other, hugs, holding hands, faces in hands, looking into each other's eyes. no emotion would be too much, no depth wrong to go to.

every thought would be important to one another. every dream something to pursue and see brought to life. my desires would not be threatening, neither would i be threatened by the desires and dreams of my friend/love.

i would know that i am wanted and delighted in at all times, and see the proof of it daily, minute by minute if needed.

there would be lots of romance and conversations, and the times of quiet would be deep and comfortable.

no situation would be too much because we would do it together. we would do everything together, groceries, cleaning, driving places, work, life, family, church, etc... never separated.

i would never be alone or abandoned, the hurts in my life would be cared for and tended. lots of laughter and smiles. i would grow and blossom in this kind of love.

'Would you come and let Me show you that Love truly looks like this?' God.